Walking out of the shadow...

No matter how hard i tried,
I found myself living in the shadow of the past,
not the past failure, but the past "relationship".

I doubt that i miss her...
but i think i started somehow or somewhat miss the present of "someone" in my life.
The very "someone" who willing to stand by your side,
the very "someone" who willing to give you all the support you need,
and the very "someone" who willing to share your love with.

I guess we never know something or someone is precious for you until you lost it?
Well, she indeed is a very nice gal. A girlfriend i could be very proud of... Indeed!

However, things just wasn't the same anymore.
Today, I listened to the very "song" that i tried to indicate to her that i wish for a break up...
tears flows down my chins like the flow of the waterfall.... rushing out non-stop..
I don't know myself, that whether i miss her or i just feeling lonely somehow...

walking slowly, slowly, and slowly,
clinching on everything on the path,
i couldn't afford for a stop,
even every small step counts a little,
for the very own me to walk out of the shadow....
till i had walk out of this shadow,
i shall not allow myself to embrace another light...

It takes more than just strength to walk out of the shadow.
Rapid flow of Time might be able to flush over the past shadow,
but while we are in the shadow itself, the only thing we could do...
is to pray sincerely to be able to stand in the shadow..

Man can be very selfish being,
I am selfish too...
I had to clinch on you now,
holding on as much longer as i could...
even there is a path full of hatred, a path of pain created from you
i will be walking this path as the feeling deep inside me could never be denied...