This few days I traveled to Penang to hangout with my bros. Along the way till spending time in Penang, everywhere I go, the sweetest memory flashes upon my eyes but the bitterness feeling strike upon my heart. Yesterday morning, I wondered alone in Queensbay Mall , walking the footsteps we once walked together. I kept asking myself, If I said I did love you, would you believe me?
She might be the factor, or the excuses I used for our break up. But do you know why did I wanted to break up so much? No, I didn't intend to break up with you just to be with her. My intention to her is just as a friend all the while. It is US who had cause the break up.
Kris Allen- The truth
Lyin' next to you
Wishing I could disappear...aay
Let you fall asleep
And vanish out into thin air..aay
It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it.
It's the avalanche that looms above our heads.
And we don't believe it.
Tryin' to be perfect
Tryin' not to let you down...ooww
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
while the floors underneath our feet are crumbling
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.
I still keep your photographs
I remember how we used to laugh
I can keep on losin' sleep
If you're okay with being torn in half.
It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it.
It's an avalanche that looms above our heads
But we don't believe it.
Tryin' to be perfect, tryin' not to let you down...oww
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
While the floors underneath our feet are crumblin'
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.
Stop ignoring that our hearts are mourning
And let the rain come in.
Stop pretending that it's not ending
And let the end begin.
Oh yeah...
Tryin' to be perfect, tryin' not to let you down...yeah
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
While the floors underneath our feet are crumblin'
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.
It's easier than telling the truth...
The truth is just too much for me to bear alone and I decided to runaway from it forever....
Leaving you behind, taking all the responsibilities which had been accumulated for years over my shoulder. I admit my irresponsibility and I understand I can't do anything to redeem my past mistake.
For now that I had been on a condition that something I did intend for, letting go both of them. Love or Like? It doesn't matter for me anymore.
I reminded myself everyday during finals that I AM A WARRIOR!
Even I admit I did had difficulties during that time on being a BAD GUY and a STUPID GUY.
BUT, I won't fall. I won't crumble.
I will fight! Till my last breath!
As I don't have any time nor chances to waste anymore.
This, my degree, is my LAST BATTLE to archive what I want!
"For yesterday is but a dream,
And tomorrow is only a vision,
But today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness,
And every tomorrow a vision of hope.
Look well, therefore, to this day!
Such is the salutation to the dawn."-part of Salutation of Dawn, Kalidasa.
This poet I read from a book. It remind me to left the past, stop worrying about tomorrow but give everything I had, my enthusiasm, my concentration and my effort into what lies on my hand now.
Hope you can do it too!
P.S. Btw, I don't like being a stranger. I still put you both as a friend of mine. If you need anything just sms me. I'll be there!
She might be the factor, or the excuses I used for our break up. But do you know why did I wanted to break up so much? No, I didn't intend to break up with you just to be with her. My intention to her is just as a friend all the while. It is US who had cause the break up.
Kris Allen- The truth
Lyin' next to you
Wishing I could disappear...aay
Let you fall asleep
And vanish out into thin air..aay
It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it.
It's the avalanche that looms above our heads.
And we don't believe it.
Tryin' to be perfect
Tryin' not to let you down...ooww
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
while the floors underneath our feet are crumbling
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.
I still keep your photographs
I remember how we used to laugh
I can keep on losin' sleep
If you're okay with being torn in half.
It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it.
It's an avalanche that looms above our heads
But we don't believe it.
Tryin' to be perfect, tryin' not to let you down...oww
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
While the floors underneath our feet are crumblin'
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.
Stop ignoring that our hearts are mourning
And let the rain come in.
Stop pretending that it's not ending
And let the end begin.
Oh yeah...
Tryin' to be perfect, tryin' not to let you down...yeah
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
While the floors underneath our feet are crumblin'
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.
It's easier than telling the truth...
The truth is just too much for me to bear alone and I decided to runaway from it forever....
Leaving you behind, taking all the responsibilities which had been accumulated for years over my shoulder. I admit my irresponsibility and I understand I can't do anything to redeem my past mistake.
For now that I had been on a condition that something I did intend for, letting go both of them. Love or Like? It doesn't matter for me anymore.
I reminded myself everyday during finals that I AM A WARRIOR!
Even I admit I did had difficulties during that time on being a BAD GUY and a STUPID GUY.
BUT, I won't fall. I won't crumble.
I will fight! Till my last breath!
As I don't have any time nor chances to waste anymore.
This, my degree, is my LAST BATTLE to archive what I want!
"For yesterday is but a dream,
And tomorrow is only a vision,
But today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness,
And every tomorrow a vision of hope.
Look well, therefore, to this day!
Such is the salutation to the dawn."-part of Salutation of Dawn, Kalidasa.
This poet I read from a book. It remind me to left the past, stop worrying about tomorrow but give everything I had, my enthusiasm, my concentration and my effort into what lies on my hand now.
Hope you can do it too!
P.S. Btw, I don't like being a stranger. I still put you both as a friend of mine. If you need anything just sms me. I'll be there!
2 comments:
Your post is reflecting my bf and I..every time I read what u wrote, my heart is thinking about my bf and I..We're having same sort of case..My bf is thinking the same way like u..thinking tht cant give me a better future..But as far as i know, my bf will not break up with me cause i believe the future is in our hand..we can create our own best future..think in another positive way pal..Me, as a reader,seeing u break up im hurt too..
Then tell your bf don't give up so easily. haha! Future is in our hand indeed! ;)! add oil!
I break up not because of future but because of my own selfishness i guess. hehe! XD!
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