Today we went all the way back her uni and back hometown together,
For her not talking much this few days, suddenly we had been splitting venom at each others...
Can you imagine that few weeks ago we are still sweet talking to each others almost everyday?
The moment she left to get her stuff in her room in UUM,
I cried, for the first time since I mention the break up.
My tears flow all their way down my cheeks for all those she had shed in this few weeks.
Which I can only shed for a few minutes.
(I don't want my ex to see my sorry face! :P!)
I am hurt myself too, deeply!
It isn't easy for me to make such decision.
However I know that I had to be firm and show her an example to be strong to face this ending.
Now that she had totally hate me, I feel both sad and glad,
that at least I am sure she could be better now.
I had lost someone I loved most for all this years,
And so do she,
In exchange for a better future for both of us.
(i think so, not her... I admit my selfishness!)
After today we won't be in each others world,
where for all those time we had spent almost everything on...
Let's move the path separately!
And may her had a better future,
And pray that my decision is right...
P.S Thx my bros Kaemin, Daniel, Calvin, ah Gong and Allen for being with me all the time!
2 comments:
I dont really get you point of breaking up?!? If you know that you're selfish then why you still want to be selfish? How do you know she will be happier without you? In my point of view, a better future doesn't equal to a happy future. Before you make the decision, did u ask her about what she really want? Love cant be selfish..love is for both side..Everything happen in life might change but the thing that remain unchanged is ur memories..can u forget everything about her just bcoz of a word SELFISH? If you can, then this is not love. You dont deserve to love. Maybe i shouldn't judge ur decision..just wan to let know that there more meaningful things that u can do besides being selfish..GOOD LUCK..
I don't deserve to love! True! I also felt that! :)! Sorry to say, I wasn't so selfish before. But now I had changed, I had a dream and nothing will stand in between my dream. Not even love! So I chosen selfishly to break up with her to release me from my further sin.
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