Today, 10th of August 2007, i went to my college to get my A level result that i knew i would failed even since i saw the exam paper when in the exam hall. And i even too shy to face any of my classmate who all of them went to get the result on the 9th of August. I feel too sorry to them that i had failed. I don't dare to face anyone of them other then my best friend...With 3 subject failed, not even one University in this world would accept me...I am a rubbish in just a second since i saw the result. My heart shattered.
My girl accompany me to sing all my heart out in Red Box, Gurney Plaza. Furthermore, we have a nice dinner together at Seoul Garden, Gurney Plaza, Penang. Thanks to her that i feel better and dare to face my family.
At night, my parents scolded me for nearly one and half hour. My mum said that i am useless and cant even compare to her achievement. And i do agree that she had been success in both her career , golf and as a mother. My dad only criticize me for some as my mum is busy scolding me. And end up both agree that they are disappointed at me and said that my lack of discipline is the cause of failure.
At that one and half hour, I don't even dare to speak a word. I wasn't scare of my parents but i am too guilty to face them. I had been dream of becoming a doctor since i am 6 years old. When an uncle told me that my dad had helped him so much that he owe my dad his life. At that moment i feel so proud of my father and determined to be what he is. I study hard and archived good result all my exam.
Long since i had known the meaning of regret, i have never felt that i had did anything that i should have regret of. However, Today is the day that i , Foong Wei Hern, had regret that i doesn't wake myself up when i first failed the A level monthly test. I thought that i can easily study everything on the last few month of A level exam. Just because i think that for a student like me with 9 A's for SPM, that would mean nothing for just 3 science subject. So i enjoy my life for one and half year. Which in the end, i had wasted my one and half year just to play from morning till night, wasted my opportunity to achieve high score and lastly, wasted all my dad's money and effort of sending me to this fine college. My dad work from day till night and committed himself to our education...and this is what i pay him...
Now, i feel that i had committed a crime against my life and my family. With all the hopes my family and all my relatives had gave me, today i had disappointed all of them and even all my friends. I had became the black sheep of the family. With my heart full of depressed, disappointment and anger toward the crime i had committed.
I wrote all the above to remind me of my most failure event in my lifetime, and to remind anyone who is going to take A level, don't even dare to think it is easy! Or you will regret as much as i am.
P.S
TO all my best friends , my family and my beloved girl. I am sorry!
7 comments:
Ok....First thing, i cried when i saw this, i know how much will you be beating yourself up for this. It is just too much for you to bear. Hope you will get over it soon. I feel sorry for saying this, but all i think i can say about your parents is they just want their children to be successful and since you are the only boy, they are especially concerned about you. I am not going to release you from your responsibilities but try not to be down-spirited anyway, there are many parts of our lives that need different priorities. Take this up like a man, and be sure you remember it well, not to regret but to make sure never will you do this mistake again. Just sms me if you can....though i doubt you would. But i am ready to share, as an ex-school mate, as a friend, as a buddy and as a whole WE. Never hesitate to call...if there is anyone i would entertain late at night or early in the morning, that will be you. Wish to here from you.
thx chriss! i am sorry i dont know who i should chat with other then my girl. Cuz i dont wish to make other worry... BUt i am very happy when i saw you giving me support even we are both far away.. thx a lot!
I think i will accept the fate as a man! And i will never give up for what i had always dream of.
Hi. I read about your result. I'm sorry to hear that you have not done well. However, what is done is done, and there's no way you can change the past. You must, however, take this as a lesson, as a reminder, and keep working harder in the future.
So, what are your plans now? Retake your A Levels? Anyhow, wish you all the best and good luck in your future. :)
hey.nothing can't be achieved with determination, hard work and courage...Face this challenge with courage!! have confidence in yourself that you'll eventually be a doctor!
how hard it will be take it as an experience.
never fall down again, once u know how to climb up, climb up high.
grab the tree n climb as high as u can.
difficulties is everyone have to go through.
but must see how u go through it.
u r not small anymore. go through it urself then u will see everything is not u think that easy. that simple. ur duty is to study hard. u sure can. cus u r not stupid as me. try ur best. i can u can. if cant u can too, because i cant study as well as u.
you knw ?
no good in result doesn't mean you didn't own da knowledge,
yea maybe you know da thing tht you studied bt don't know answer in da test/exam, or whatever
but i blif tht you'll successful to be a doctor as you wish if you want ...
study more books and take it as a hobby lo...ok ?
no gaming always d la hahaha
itz jst entertainment nt your life....
ken.
hei, niyi here. i dunno what to say bout ur results or what u're supposed to do cause i feel there's really only one option here right?
you're going to be a doctor.
some dreams take forever to achieve. some don't even happen if u wait a whole lifetime. but urs is the kind of dream that can be achieved in a few months cause u just need to retake the exam.
there's no denying how hard a-levels is but there's also nth that can stop u from doing what u want s long s u work harder.
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