WoRrIEd...........

It is late 0100 in the morning. I had just chat with my girlfren by sms. And I found out that she often worried a lot or having some negative thinking. It make me feel worried too. As I am going to leave her to go either National Service for training or KDU Penang to further my study. I love her. And I dont want her to suffer nor to be lonely. However I had to go, either to futher study or camp. Although I had tried to sms her often and chat with her. But this seem to not to ease her matter. I wonder what wrong with me to make her feel so. I think I could have done anything wrong. Just that I can't remembered anything that make her so. Yes, I might not be a perfect boy fren. All I could do is to be with her when she sad and try hard to make her smile.

I had tried to change myself too.
I am getting to listen to every single thing she said. I am controlling my temper so that I won't make her sad or shock. Maybe all this isn't good enough. I dunno why and how.

I asked myself wether I had treat her bad or hurt her? Or I didn't pay enough attention on her? Did she feeling alright with me? Did she like me the way I did?
All this question might not be answered. But at least I wanted to change this situation.

Everytime she will say she will settle the situation herself. This ain't good for me! How would I feel if I left my girl fren think alone what had happen until late night? Although most of the time she manage to smile and happy the other day. But I just wanted her to be happy always and not only in front of me.

lazy pig, I love you. I wanted to see you smile always but dont pretend to smile when you are sad. Because this I am even sad and worried.I am sorry if I had done anything wrong to you. But at least tell me what happen with you and how you feel...